The Evolution of Davey

I had a conversation with my older sister today and it was rather interesting. She was telling me about how dad took it upon himself to insult her and basically tell her that she is worthless (maybe its his way of saying I <3 you?). The only reason my dad did this was because my mom took a day trip to Mexico and he is too afraid to say it when she is around….or in the same country.

Dad has done this to me hundreds of time. I don’t know if he is trying to compensate for some grave injustice that was done to him by his father but I know that I won’t give him the opportunity anymore (you know, because I just LOVE getting told that I’m worthless). I’m halfway moved out of my house (I have all the necessary things with me and I’m pretty much using my old room as storage) and I don’t talk to the man unless its absolutely necessary.

Daddy dearest has gone out of his way to tell me that I am accepted in my family, but my homosexuality isn’t. How can one survive without the other? Something tells me that he just likes to see me miserable. I am who I am and there are people in this world that love me unconditionally. I have a very supportive aunt and best friends that save a seat for me at the dinner table during the holidays. I don’t need him to tell me who I can and can’t love. I love my boyfriend and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

My mom, on the other hand, is a complex (fancy word for confusing) individual. My mom has told me on several occasions that she supports me, but when my dad is around she wants to perform an exorcism. Mom and Dad take their religion VERY seriously. Both of them attend church (More like a seminar on hate), They go around spreading the world and blessing everyone (with or without a sneeze). If anyone asks them to see things from their point of view they immediately shut themselves off and shove their message down your throat even more.  Love thy neighbor? I think not.

My parents are so worried about what their church brothers and sisters (I thought I had so many Aunts and Uncles growing up) will say if they found out. I’m not an expert or anything, but doesn’t the bible teach you not to be so vain? Doesn’t it say something about not caring about what people say about you? I’m pretty sure no one would give a rat’s ass (its not like they didn’t suspect anything) but if there are people that can’t mind their own busines and gossip about it(it wouldn’t be church without some good chisme!) then they would just be going against several teachings in the bible, thus damning themselves to hell for all eternity.

We all have to answer to a higher power, whatever that is (OMG Cher?!). I will have to answer for all my sins and I will be held accountable. No one is going to take the blame for me sleeping with men. That being said, what I do with my life won’t affect anyone else (unless you’re sinning with me) and I really think my parents or anyone who has something against Gays and Lesbians should really re-evaluate what it is that they are fighting against. How does it affect them?How is my way of life detrimental to yours?

My parents don’t really see it that way and as much as I’d like to believe that they will eventually open their minds I know that it will probably never happen. As long as they are reporting for Jesus-Duty every Sunday I know I won’t have a good relationship with them. It hurts, and nothing will ever fill the void I have in my heart (yes, the gays have hearts too)  but at least I’m lucky enough to have someone to love me unconditionally.